|Posted on May 1, 2017 at 10:35 AM|
APRIL 23 -- ONE FORWARD, TWO BACK
This week's Chronicle is a day late because, well, I guess because last week's miraculous gift of functionality was an Easter miracle instead of a "fix" of some kind. Don't misunderstand; He Remains Risen, as do the the hope and "newness of life" that liturgical Christian congregations acknowledge by observing Easter for seven Sundays, followed by Pentecost, when the metaphorical "fire" of the Spirit comes to dwell with those who accept it. I think I had the 7 weeks of Easter crammed into this one week.
Bottom line is that halfway through the week, I found myself in a downward spiral, the likes of which I have never experienced, physically. It was as if my meds just packed up and went home. I had all the symptoms of overdose, as my brain demanded its mind-altering drugs, then when I dosed, it was a crapshoot as to whether they would help. . My doctor was unreachable (he's entitled to that; it was just bad timing), so I had to slug out alterations to eke out a modicum of physical peace. The pain wasn't pain; it was merely an unbearable paralysis in my legs and back. "Hold on!" I thought. "This isn't in the job description!" Whodathunk it? My PD is an overachiever!
When you know you're running out of options, you either have to be creative, get help, or both. As my assistant was helping me get through the long, tedious day, she suddenly noticed that I had failed to take my "adjunct meds" - ones that help the "headliners" do their job, at least in my case. So, that was a huge art of the puzzle solved -- and I can only wonder how the hell I could have made such a dangerous mistake. It also reminds me that Easter represents a far more subtle concept set: that we're all in this life together, a journey that has but one destination. Even so, we are called to celebrate this life together, to reach out to those who need us, and to be thankful for those who sustain us, especially during our times of trial.
I've had a lot of sustaining this week, and it's made a difference. So the story goes on. Easter isn't over yet.